Some times in life it can be so easy to think of all the things we do not have or of all the things we are not.
Why can't you see
Freedom is sometimes just simply another perspective away?
Who could you be
If your lens was changed for a moment?
Would you still be the same?
In this “season” I am finding freedom in the gift of gratitude. Every time I start to think of this "singleness" or of life without mom or of all the areas I feel weak or inadequate, I try to shift my perspective to the richness of this singleness, the sweet memories of life with mom, and the areas where I feel strong and secure; heaven knows this is not an easy task yet amazing how once I enter into that "space" of gratitude, my perspective changes. With this new perspective everything becomes brighter and more beautiful.
One of the things I am most thankful for this year?
My ten little bearcats plus one bigger bearcat.
Sometimes I don’t know why God will entrust us and bless us with gifts we feel far too unworthy of receiving, or those incidences when we think we know what we need, only to be blindsided and given something totally different; the very thing we actually DO need (Oh, how silly we can be!).
I haven’t necessarily been looking for love or a relationship over the past few months but I definitely didn’t think ‘preparation’ time for it would come in the form of coaching a women’s basketball team, in fact, that's the very last thing I would have thought.
These 11 young women are teaching me everything, absolutely everything I need to know about being a woman of integrity, and yes, eventually a wife and mother of noble character.
The fog of the past 8 months is finally starting to clear, and through this Bearcat team I am reminded that life always comes back to being about people; you cannot escape this simple truth. The only time I really lose focus or lose my way is when I start to lose sight of the beautiful people all around me, ultimately when I forget to be thankful for them.
The answer to healing and growth is always love. The more you care so deeply about people like the way I find myself caring for these Bearcats, the more it changes you from the inside out. When you fully invest yourself into the lives of people for no other reason other than to love them it strikes you down deep to your very core; you could never be the same again. You could never not be thankful.
There are days where I feel absolutely exhausted at the thought of going in to a gym and leading a basketball practice, but it's a funny thing, love always wins. I feel I could never coach tired, I could never not dig up every last bit of energy within me because somehow my heart always comes alive with them and for them. I look around me on the court and my heart is beating gratitude for the gift of each and every Bearcat. I cannot express how great of a blessing this is! I lay my life down for them and in return they teach me to be the best I can be. I cannot just tell them how important it is to communicate, to extend grace, to be on time, to work hard or to be responsible; I too must follow my lead, I too must act, I too must be excellent. This will prepare me for many great things ahead.
And so, this thanksgiving, I am thankful. Thankful to have felt like I lost everything I ever loved this year only to gain it right back in a way I would have never expected.
These Bearcat ladies partnered with God's grace have become like the wind beneath my wings. Indeed, I am thankful.
"The brave who focus on all things good and all things beautiful and all things true, even in the small, who give thanks for it and discover joy even in the here and now, they are the change agents who bring fullest Light to all the world. When we lay the soil of our hard lives open to the rain of grace and let joy penetrate our cracked and dry places, let joy soak into our broken skin and deep crevices, life grows. How can this not be the best thing for the world? For us? The clouds open when we mouth thanks." -Ann Voskamp