The more I journey on in this "singleness" the more I am beginning to understand how being in a relationship with someone and sharing life with someone is a gift, the more I am learning to cherish love and not take it for granted when it does come along, the more excited I am at the simple thought of having a ‘boyfriend” again.
Earlier in 2012, a really amazing woman had a dream that Lisa and I would receive beautiful gifts. In this particular dream, the content and timing of these gifts were not disclosed. Simply gifts from God, elegantly wrapped and by the sounds of it, when described to me, not actual gifts of this world – gifts of heaven - sparkling and radiant.
It seems a bit silly to think of how enthralled I am by the image of these mysterious gifts in my mind considering I’m not even sure what my “gift” represents (although I have a pretty good idea!) nor have I ever been particularly interested in how a gift is wrapped or presented. I’m one of those "let’s get er’ open and see what’s inside” kind of girls; it has never really been my thing to open a gift slowly or carefully, I would much prefer to rip the dang thing apart to see what's inside (ASAP!).
Now the funny thing about this “gift” is that I can only envision it at this point, I cannot actually see it with my own two eyes. It’s not even wrapped and sitting underneath a tree this time of year waiting for me to open it on Christmas morning (at least it wasn't this year).
But there is something about being hopeful.
There is something about being patient.
There is something about the waiting; waiting to see what’s inside this delicate, splendid, mysterious gift.
You have to hold the gift with open hands, stand back and trust unhesitatingly. You have to trust that in not giving in and opening it before it is due to be opened you will receive something far greater than you could ever imagine. The gift will be golden.
And so... this holiday season, although I didn't have a great, exquisite gift to open, I trust and I wait; perhaps by this time next year I will have opened my gift and the wait will be over...